Have no fear of perfection.

I’m so glad this semester is almost over. I feel like my brain is about to explode. One semester closer to getting the fuck out of Phoenix.

I want to leave so bad, but I’m going to leave a lot behind. I almost wish that I was only leaving my family here, and not my boyfriend. Because I have a feeling that things won’t work long distance between us. I dunno what to do.

My personality:

• I’m loud. 
• I’m obnoxious.
• I’m sarcastic.
• I’m cocky.
• I cry easily.
• I have a bad temper.
• For the most part i don’t like people.
• I’m easy to get along with.
• I have more enemies than friends.
• I’ve smoked.
• I’ve smoked weed.
• I drink coffee.
• I clean my room daily.

My appearance:

• I wear makeup.
• I wear a piece of jewelery at all times.
• I wear contacts.
• I wear glasses.
• I have braces.
• I change my hair color often.
• I straighten my hair often.
• I have a piercing.
• I have small feet.

Relationships:

• I’m in a relationship now.
• I’m single.
• I’m crushin’. 
• I’ve missed an ex before.
• I’m always scared of being hurt.
• I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
• I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did. 
• I’ve been in love more than two times.
• I believe in love at first sight.
• I believe lust is more important than love.

Friendships:

• I have a best friend. 
• I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
• I’ve beaten up a friend.
• I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.
• I can trust at least five people with my life.

Experiences:

• I’ve been on a plane.
• I’ve been on a train.
• Someone close to me has died.
• I’ve taken a taxi.
• I’ve taken a city bus.
• I’ve taken a school bus.
• I’ve gone bungee jumping.
• I’ve made a speech.
• I’ve been in some sort of club.
• I’ve won an award.
• I’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight.
• I’ve been in a physical fight.

Music:

• I listen to R&B.
• I listen to country.
• I listen to pop.
• I listen to techno.
• I listen to rock. 
• I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedy until i hate it.
• I hate the radio.
• I download music.
• I buy CD’s.

Television:

• I spend at least six hours a day watching television.
• I watch soap operas daily.
• I’m in love with Days Of Our Lives.
• I’ve seen and liked the O.C.
• I’ve seen and liked One Tree Hill.
• I’ve seen and like Americas Next Top Model.
• I’ve seen and like Popular.
• I’ve seen and like 24.
• I’ve seen and liked CSI.
• I’ve seen and like Everwood.

Family Life:

• I get along with both of my parents.
• My biological parents are still together.
• I have at least one brother.
• I have at least one sister.
• I have at least one step brother/sister.
• I have at least one half brother/sister.
• I’ve been kicked out of the house.
• I’ve ran away from my home.
• I’ve sworn at my parents.
• I’ve made my parents cry. 
• I’ve lied to my parents.
• I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
• I’ve lied to my parents about what I’m doing.
• I’ve lied to my parents so I’d be allowed out.
• I’ve walked out when I’ve been grounded.

Hair:

• I’ve been brown. 
• I’ve had streaks.
• I’ve cut my hair in the past year.
• I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.
• I’ve been blonde. 
• I’ve had black.
• I’ve been red.
• I’ve been light brown.
• I’ve been medium brown.
• I’ve been blue/green.
• I’ve gotten my hair thinned.
• I use conditioner.
• I’ve used silk therapy.
• I’ve used hot oil treatments.
• I’ve curled my hair.
• I’ve straightened my hair.
• I’ve ironed my hair.
• I’ve braided my hair.

School:

• I’ve yelled at a teacher.
• I’ve been suspended.
• I’ve had an in-school suspension.
• I’ve been sent to the principals office.
• I’ve walked out of class.
• I’ve skipped an entire day of school.
• I’ve skipped a whole month of one certain class.
• I’ve failed a test.
• I’ve cheated on a test.
• I’ve helped someone else cheat on a test.
• I’ve failed Art.
• I’ve failed P.E.
• I’ve failed math.
• I’ve failed science.
• I’ve failed another class.
• A teacher has called my parents

I literally eat at my cuticles all day long. Its a really bad compulsion, and I can’t stop from doing it. I do it when I’m nervous, frustrated, bored, everything.

You shouldn’t talk to your yourself
Well I pictured somebody else
Someone that looks like
What I look like

Would you say that one of your dreams
Got in you and ripped out the seams
That’s what I’d say
That’s what I’d say

He was a sucker for your double dose
Motherfucker turned white as a ghost
Don’t you say hi
Don’t you say hi

With a broken sink for a face
And a head that just takes up space
He’s not half right
He’s not half right

It’s already half past
And it won’t last

I was sticking up for my friend
When there’s nothing much to defend
It’s a lost fight
It’s a lost fight

Cause when I talk to you on the phone
Well it’s just like being alone
It’s not half right
It’s not half right

Elliott Smith makes me feel simultaneously better and sad.

I think the drunkest I’ve ever been was as Nick’s friend Erik’s new years party. There were two kegs, but one was in the pool because he only had one garbage can. I had like, 3 beers, and like 5 cups of vodka and Hawaiian punch. There were like, 200 kids in his house, and one of his neighbors called the cops. There was a beer pong table in plain view from the front door, and drunk lids everywhere, but the cop just said to turn the music down. I’ve never been so drunk that I couldn’t stay awake, and I was like, falling asleep. Right as midnight rolled around, they played some Andrew WK song and everyone freaked out. We left soon after that, and I don’t know how we got home without dying because Nick and I were super drunk.

I regret not working harder in high school and getting scholarships. I know that I could have been top of my class if I really tried, but I’m SO lazy. I never did my homework, but would usually ace tests. I’m really good at remembering what I’m taught and being able to recall it, but homework is the death of me. I hate Phoenix, and if I’d worked harder, and frankly just not given a fuck about anyone but myself, I could be up at NAU right now, or in another state if I’d gotten a full ride there. I kick myself everyday that I’m not where I want to be. But hopefully I’ll be at NAU next fall, and I can finally get the fuck out of here.

1. Finish my online classes.

2. Clean my room and finish my laundry.

3. Get my conches punched.

4. Get small parts of my feet touched up.

5. Start saving money for an apartment for next year.

6. Make sure I pass all my classes so I can graduate on time.

7. Maybe start seeing my counselor again, and try to be happy.

Is your bathroom mirror also a medicine cabinet? If so, what’s in there? 
Its just a regular mirror. My cabinet has a shit ton of hair stuff and old makeup though. I need to clean it.

What kinds of stuff do you keep on top of your dresser? 
Jewelry boxes, perfume, random shit.

What was the last movie you watched? Who did you watch it with, if anyone? 
I watched Pi with Nick and Danny. It was seriously one of the weirdest movies I’ve ever seen.

What was the last book you read? 
My literature book. Bleh.

Do you hang your pants in the closet, or fold them in a drawer? 
I fold them in a drawer.

Is your living space tidy? 
Not even.

What was the last nice thing someone said to you? 
I can’t recall.

Ice cream cake or traditional cake? 
FUCK YEAH ICE CREAM CAKE.

Do watch that show Ace of Cakes? 
I do sometimes.

Does it drive you MAD that they use so much foam and such?
Um, no?

What would you want to be famous for, if anything? 
Writing.

How many siblings do you have? Do you like that? 
I have one, and no. I don’t particularly like her.

What song are you listening to? 
Finding Something To Do – Hellogoodbye. I love their new album so much.

Would you get back with your last ex boyfriend if he asked you to? 
Never. But I did have a dream the other night that he asked me to, and I said no.

Are you paranoid? 
I am about certain things. I very strongly dislike being surrounded by strangers. It freaks me out.

How old were you when you had your first kiss? 
My first real kiss was… 13.

Is Google the best way to find information? 
I guess so.

Are you keeping a secret from anyone? 
I guess I keep secrets from everyone. I don’t think anyone knows absolutely everything about me.

Do you ever feel like just giving up? 
All the time. I sometimes think of just checking myself in somewhere and not dealing with the world anymore, but I have to.

Ever had a fist fight? 
Nope. Someone wanted to “knock me the fuck out” once though. Hah.

Do you like being kissed on the neck? 
Of course.

Ever been in love? 
I have. And still am.

Last thing you ate? 
Trix.

Last thing you drank? 
Orange Juice.

Are you a shy person? 
I usually am around people I don’t know.

Ever told a relative you hated them? 
Probability my parents when I was younger.

Do you like strawberry milkshake? 
Yess.

What does your last text say? 
“Meh” from Nick.

What do you think of Lil Wayne? 
Eh. His music is catchy.

What do you think of Kings Of Leon? 
I think their singer sounds like Scott Stapp sometimes.

What color is your pillow? 
Gold.

What is your favorite sort of chocolate? 
Dark.

Ever been to Chicago? 
Nope.

Your ex tells you he loves you, you say? 
I’d be incredibly surprised, but I’d probably say, um. Okay.

Are you single or in a relationship? 
In a relationship.

Are you happy with this? 
Mmhmm.

Do you hate it when your computer/laptop freezes? 
I have a Mac so that rarely happens.

How much money do you have on you right now? 
I have some loose change and a Sonic mint in my pocket.

Do you have any teddybears? 
A few from when I was liddle.

Can you dance? 
Not at all.

Can you sing? 
I think that I can sing decent.

Are you double-jointed? 
Nope.

Ever felt lonely? 
All the time.

Ever tasted your own tears? 
Sure.

Can you swim? 
Its my only form of exercise!

Are you proud of yourself? 
I guess so. I mean, I could have made better choices, but I’m trying my best.

Do you smile often?

I try to.

Ever been cheated on? 
Yep.

Do you own an iPod? 
I use it everyday.

Ever had swine flu? 
Nope.

Name a Celebrity you think is hot?
KEITH BUCKLEY.

Do you make your parents proud? 
My mom tells me I do.

What is your cologne/perfume/fragrance of choice? 
Clinique Happy.

What was the last zoo/aquarium you went to? 
I went to some aquarium in San Diego last year.

What’s the closest big/capital city to where you live? 
Phoenix, the butthole of the Southwest.

Have you ever been to a planetarium? If so, doesn’t it make you want to sleep? 
I think they have one at the Science Center downtown. I’ve been to that.

Are you obsessive?
Eh.

What are your bad habits? 
I bite my nails, I play with my hair, and I pick scabs.  

Are you a skilled artist? 
Nope.

Your favorite muffin is….. 
Lemon poppyseed is good.

Bagel, English muffin or croissant? 
I love all three!

Do you like hugs? What about from your family? 
I love hugs. My mom is the only family member that hugs me on a regular basis.

How tall are you? Do people tease you for it? 
I’m 5’11”. I’ve gotten shit for it all though high school from everyone. NO, I don’t model. NO, I don’t play basketball or volleyball.

Does wide ruled paper annoy you? 
I don’t care.

What is your favorite pattern? (plaid, stripes, polka dots, paisley, etc..) 
I love paisley, houndstooth and herringbone.

Do you wear stripes with plaids? 
Never.

So, do you follow the fashion rules? 
I try to.

What are your favorite type of jeans? (Skinny, flare, boot cut, etc..) 
Skinny.

Low rise or high waist? 
I prefer low rise, but high waist looks cute on those who can rock it.

Describe the shirt you are wearing: 
Its blue.

Do you feel obligated to draw on converse? 
Eh. All my pairs are already drawn on.

Favorite dog breed? 
English Bulldogs.

Are you into the Ed Hardy thing? 
Never.

Favorite clothing desginer/brand? 
Marc Jacobs.

Do you hate your text books for school? 
I have like, 4 but I’ve only cracked 1.

More often: Eyes on TV or nose in book? 
Either the computer or TV. I need to read more.

What are your thoughts on the metrosexual thing? 
I don’t get why there needs to be a label for a man who likes to dress nicely.

^^

Exactly.

Do the Yankees suck? 
I don’t watch baseball.

Do people judge you? 
Probably.

Do you enjoying cooking? 
I usually ruin it.

What about baking? 
I make a mean cheesecake.

Did you get teased in grade school? 

I didn’t really have any friends, so yeah. All the popular girls in high school were the ones who treated my like shit in elementary.

Do you have candles in your bedroom? 
I have a few, but I rarely light them.

Do hate the rustling noise that bags of chips make?
Meh, those fucking Sun Chips bags though. JESUS CHRIST.

Do you think band-aids look tacky? 
They’re just there to keep you from bleeding. I don’t think they have to look nice.

Do you wear glasses? 
I have a pair, but I usually wear contacts.

Are you a fan of wine? 
I like it better than beer.

Would you rather be hot or cold? 
Cold.

Does your grandmother pinch your cheeks? 
Nope, because I’m not three.

Do friends come to you for help?
Sometimes.

I don’t really think I enjoyed sex until I started dating Nick. Hahaha. I think the most memorable time was the first time we were together, because neither of us had gotten any in months and it was just.. awesome. Like, not nice and romantic. It was really, passionate I guess. :)

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hungrypeter:

STOP DRINKING OUR TEA!

Um AZ tea isn’t made in Arizona
……

Yeah, haha Arizona tea is made in New York.

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